The End of a Year

I know what you are thinking?  End of a year??!?  But it’s only the end of June.  Well for me it is the end of a very difficult 12 months.  Today is the one year anniversary of my last day of work at my last job.  I did not leave by choice, I was laid off due to the economy.  It was one of the worst things to happen to me.  I loved my old job.  My co-workers were my family and I was really enjoying my work.  And it was ripped out from underneath me.  Needless to say, this sent me to some emotional turmoil.  The next 12 months were filled with tears, worry, and depression in varying degrees.  I opened up my own business but it really didn’t bring in much money.  And I didn’t enjoy the work I was doing.  I was stressed out and my poor family felt the toll of that. 

Then yesterday, almost the year to the day, a significant event occurred.  I got a new job.  A job doing something I think I will love and will be good at.  And it pays more money than my last job.  And I am really excited!  But there is one catch.  It requires a move to Phoenix, approximately 4 hours away from my current home.  So now there are new concerns popping up.  And I’m worried again, but it’s an excited worry.  But I do know that my family is going change.

It is most likely that my DH will not be able to make the move with me.  He has a job here that ties him to the area and my new salary, while more, is not enough to justify quitting his job at this time.  We also have our house, which we have lived in for nearly 4 years.  It’s home and we can’t walk away from it.  In all likelihood, we will be a commuter marriage.  And that is the hardest thing, I’m not sure I’m strong enough to do this without him next to me.  But I am going to find out!

So lots of changes for me personally, and I will do my best to blog about them!

My Inaugrual Post I Believe!

I believe this is the first post I have ever made on this blog.  I do most of my postings over on my design blog, Band Geek Designs, but I registered this blog too for when I decided I wanted a more personal blog.  And I guess the time is now!  I saw this meme over at Marriage Confessions where I am slowly reading through the archives.  And I thought, let’s do it here too.  So here we go….

I am: nervous, anxious, excited, happy and sad all at once.

I think: the world would be better if people thought a little more, loved a little more, and talked a little less.

I know: nothing is perfect except what is perfect for you.

I have: a completely messy house due to being sick for two weeks straight.

I wish: things were just a little easier sometimes

I hate: bills and negative people

I miss: carefree days of childhood and my family.

I fear: failing my family and making a fool of myself.

I hear: joy in my children’s voices.

I smell: nothing, thank you allergies!

I crave: a soft place to land.

I search: contentment with the ones I love and the wisdom to see it when it’s there.

I wonder: what it’s like to be a dog.

I regret: regretting and worry.

I love: my husband to pieces.

I ache: like a person who is getting old.

I am not: a girly girl. 

I believe: that everything will work out as God intended.

I dance: to Katy Perry and Glee.

I sing: off-key with my headphones on.

I cry: more since I had my kids but they are joyful tears.

I fight: the feeling of inadequacy every day. 

I lose: my fears when I talk to my friends.

I win: the argument most of the time.

I never: let them see in the fear in my eyes.

I always: think I forgot to lock the door.

I confuse: Timothy Leary and Denis Leary.

I listen: to music to feed my soul.

I am scared: when I’m alone watching a scary movie.

I need: peace, love and a good bear hug.

I am happy about: the direction my life is heading.

I can usually be found: at my computer.

 

As you can see I’m philosophical tonight.  The weekend is coming and I am happy once again.  Ta-ta!

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